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12 November 2007 @ 12:00 pm
I'm determined to start journaling regularly again. I thought I'd get things started with a meme.

What Have You Done? BOLD THEM!Collapse )
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13 February 2007 @ 09:17 pm
31 December 2006 @ 08:32 am
I'm not one for resolutions, and I don't usually celebrate New Years Eve, but I don't ignore it either. I usually think back on the year behind me, and look foreward to the one ahead. At many times throughout 2006, there was a song that would come to mind. I thought of it when I graduated nursing school, and when I started my first job as a nurse. I thought of it when it became clear that Jayden was going to be ours. And I thought of it when I really needed to. When the job didn't work out, when I got bogged down in my sisters' struggles, or my own depression. When my grandmother died....

I don't think it was a real big hit, but it has a lot to say, and I agree with it. It's a fundamental part of who I am that I'm always searching for, working toward- Better Days.

Better Days

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

-By the Goo Goo Dolls
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
13 December 2006 @ 08:13 pm
I just finished reading 'Running with Scissors' and 'Dry' by Augusten Borroughs. (I eat books like candy). I read a lot of memoirs because I would like to write my own someday. One thing that I have learned, from my own life and from memoires, is that the truth is, most definitely, stranger than fiction. (obviously I'll have to do some work with my grammar before I write anything) I used to think that I could never publish my life story because it's so damn crazy, no one would believe me. Obviously this is not a concern of Augusten Burroughs. He just lets it all hang out - and I believe every word of it. 'Running" was a little painful to read, but definitely worth it. 'Dry' was even better in my opinion. It was definitely funnier. He's got one more out, 'Magical Thinking' I think it's called. I'm not sure if it's another memoir or fiction, but I'll have to check it out. It was also interesting reading something from the viewpoint of a gay man. I don't really have any gay-guy friends right now, and never really knew any growing up. Ironically, one of my first boyfriends ended up coming out years after we broke up, but I hardly ever hear from him. I loved him, part of me still does, but he really was kind of a jerk. He changed A LOT after coming out, but that's something that's stayed pretty much the same. But where am I going with this anyways? One minute I'm reviewing a book the next I'm reminiscing about Ryan-the-jerk-who-I-will-always-have-a-soft-spot-for.

So back to the the books. They were great. It's amazing that this guy had no schooling beyond elementary school. It just goes to show that some talents, you are just born with. I haven't seen the movie yet, wanted to read the book first. I can't imagine how a movie could convey as much as the book did, but then, they rarelly do. I think 'Interview with the Vampire' was the only exception to this. The movie was awesome, the book nearly bored me to tears.
Current Location: As usual
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: Kids babbling
07 December 2006 @ 01:22 pm
1. Go to Popculturemadness, and find the greatest hits for the year you turned 18. (on the left-hand side)
2. Select at least the first 40.
3. Bold the ones you like.
4. Strike out the ones you hate.
5. Italicize the ones you are familiar with but neither like nor hate.
6. Leave the ones you don't know as is.

here's my listCollapse )
Current Location: home, finally
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Jason babbling and yelling at the dog
28 November 2006 @ 11:09 pm
Allright, is anyone having issues with LJ tonight, or is it just my computer? I keep getting these error messages, and then links that sort of.... I don't know....die

Anyone? Anyone? Bueler?
Current Mood: weirdweird
27 November 2006 @ 08:25 pm
Here's the deal. You look over the following list and see how many of these things you have done. You have to add up the money amount along the way. Then post the amount that you are as the title of the bulletin.

Had sex: $6.00
Smoked: $5.00
Got drunk: $5.00
Went skinny dipping: $3.00
Kissed someone of the opposite sex: $4.00
Kissed someone of the same sex: $4.00
Cheated: $2.00
Fell asleep in class: $0.51
Been expelled: $5.00
Been in a fist fight: $3.00
Given oral: $5.00
Got oral: $5.00
Prank called the cops: $3.00
Stole something: $20.03
Done drugs: $5.00
Dyed your hair: $0.50
Done something with someone older (like a few years): $3.00
Went out with someone OVER 18 (if your under 18): $4.00
Ate a whole thing of oreos: $0.50
Cried yourself to sleep: $1.00
Said you love someone but didnt mean it: $1.00
Been in love: $4.00
Got caught doing something that you shouldnt have been doing: 1.00
Went streaking: $4.00
Got arrested: $5.00
Madeout with someone at the movies: $2.00
Peed in the pool: $0.50
Played spin the bottle: $1.00
Done something you regret: $3.00
Current Mood: guiltyguilty
27 November 2006 @ 12:47 am
Well I completed an online application tonight, submitted the resume and everything. Tomorrow Im going to a local drug treatment center that's hiring nurses right now to drop off another resume. I hate to get away from my clinical skills, but I'm also very drawn to this kind of work. I find I can really connect with these people in a meaningful way. So if I get the job, it'll pay the bills until something more clinical comes up. Chances are, even when that happens, I'll still work a shift or two at the treatmet center. I honestl feel like I could make a difference there.

Tomorrow will be a busy day (Dr's appointments for the kids, about 1,000 phone calls to make, errands to run etc.), but that's just what I need to get myself going again.
Current Location: bed
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
25 November 2006 @ 11:49 pm
I just have to say this "determined" kitty emoticon (see previous post) is cracking me up. It really does remind me of my own cat when she's hot on the trail of a mouse, or a dust-bunny :)
24 November 2006 @ 01:06 am
So I am now officially 29. Why is it that this seems so much older than 28? I've been a married woman with adult responsibilities for years now, and I've always felt older than my actual age, but for some reason, 30 seems like a "real adult" to me. I'm mot so sure I'm ready for that. Well, I guess I have a year to get used to it.

I'm feeling all morose right now, but I'll do a list of things I'm thankful for. Maybe that'll give me the kick in the ass I need to break out of this depressive funk. I am truly thankful for (in no particular order):

-my husband John
-my two beautiful, sweet little boys, who make it all somehow seem worthwhile
-the roof over our heads, the food in our bellies and the love we have for each other
-my best friend Melissa, who I can go for months without talking to, but instantly pick up where we left off without missing a beat. The one kid that would let the new, shy, redheaded girl sit next to her on the bus in 1'st grade
-my intelligence and my ability to see things in people that others may miss
-my mom and my sisters, who, though they've brought me more grief that anything in the past few years, will always share a bond with me that comes from being together through all the experiences that makes us who we are
-my(finally!)long, golden-red curls
-all the opportunities I've had to learn
Current Location: bed
Current Mood: fullfull
Current Music: John's soft snoring beside me